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A simpler life.
It’s a beautiful day, and a perfect time in it to be alone. My good friend just took the little bear out for a walk – I am left here alone to work, or sleep, or write, or clean, or do whatever calls my attention most!
It’s been a long couple of months. I returned to working a part time job to supplement my income until the business could fully support me. The idea was to work part time, and exchange child care with friends so that I would not incur child care costs etc. It was a great idea in theory, but when it came down to it my “supplementing” was leaving little time to work on the business which I am trying to grow, and very little energy for my little bear who I am trying to enjoy and guide the best I can. 
 So here I am – I made the decision to quit my part time job, and focus on the business and being a mother, with the faith that dedicating that energy to the things I love will lead the little bear and I into a better life. Already I am seeing results! I was struggling with the exhaustion of nursing him more than I would like to, and him having restless sleeps, and never completing any one task in my day – now, by simplifying and prioritizing my life I spend my time with him focusing only on him and our home, and my time away from him (when fabulous friends or family members take him for a few hours!) focusing primarily on the business and furthering my education. It seems simple, and it is – but I had been struggling, trying to juggle too many things in each day. I think it was exhausting and stressful for both of us. Now the little bear sleeps through the night and he nurses only once in a 24 hr period. I feel more focused, patient, and calm. The little bear is happier and more relaxed. Life is great! Another change I have made to my life is giving up sugar. It’s been a week now without any refined sugar. I cook with molasses or honey, and eat fruit, but that’s where it ends! I used to eat a very healthy diet, and in the past year things got off track in all my attempts to stretch time and myself beyond our limits.
Here I sit at my computer, the sun streaming through the window, some relaxing music playing, a cup of herbal tea, and a very long to-do list. I feel wonderful, I feel lucky, I feel faithful, I feel inspired.
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The best day EVER
It’s been so long since I’ve written! Things have been a little crazy, and busy. I am trying to co-ordinate returning to a part time job, with working on the business, with child care, with single parenting, and it’s all falling into place! This is why I haven’t written – because up until today I couldn’t see it “falling in to place” and all I felt was stress. But today – the best day ever, I feel good, empowered, positive, and confident about the future.
This morning I went to my very first session of mom and toddler Yoga – it was amazing. I haven’t really done much yoga before, but I used to be very active before the birth of my son – now I am active…but it’s running after him, not exercising for the sake of it…and I miss it! So today a dear friend of mine treated me to a yoga session that my little bear could accompany me to. We both had a great time. I feel on top of the world. We went to a new studio located at May and Moss – it’s called Hemma, and it has such a wonderful feel in there – so welcoming and calm. It just opened recently, and I think it is the perfect place for my little bear and I to go. I am planning to try and make it a weekly visit as a time for some self care, and for the little bear to socialize a bit. It’s amazing how much more connected to him I felt after the session also – like it just brought me back into the present moment…
After the yoga my dear friend did another dear thing for me and took the little bear for a walk while I had a massage I had received a gift certificate for close to a year ago! Yet another wonderful experience. I came home from this day feeling tall, strong, empowered, and positive. Then another dear friend called me up and offered to take the little bear and I out to dinner, it was wonderful not to have to cook, and to go out and enjoy a feast! What a perfect end to a perfect day. It’s amazing what a day of self care and support from friends can do.
Now I am going to begin planning my baby’s first birthday party! Already! I can’t believe it has been a year…and yet I can’t believe it’s only been a year. I imagine this feeling never goes away somehow.
How fortunate I am to have such a beautiful, sweet, amazing baby boy to share all my days with! How lucky I am to have friends to treat me to such beautiful days!
I feel full of contentment and happiness.
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another late night
Every morning I wake up and think “tonight I will go to bed earlier” and then the day flies by with my little bear, and it’s night again, and I have loads I still want/need to do! So here I am writing a blog between writing product descriptions, researching Waldorf, and Montessori schools for my little bear, and studying for my aromatherapy exam!
It’s amazing that one can feel so tired, and overwhelmed – yet over riding this mildly anxious feeling is such excitement. I really enjoy most every part of my days. I love my baby more than anything – I never knew that being a mother would be like this (don’t get me wrong, there are moments I just want to scream – like when he ripped my floor lamp apart and dumped a bag of cereal all over the kitchen and hallways ALL within the space of 3 min). Every morning he wakes up with a smile on his face and his arms reaching up to me and it warms my heart. It’s absolutely amazing. It’s a joy to watch him develop, to learn: he observes everything so closely and you can see him piecing the world together. He is walking so well now!! I am very excited as he is such a large baby, he gets quite heavy to carry, and now he walks the last block home, and down the long hall to our apt. He gets distracted by other people – he thinks everyone should talk to him, and he observes them so closely – I wonder sometimes what he is thinking, I love his confidence and friendly attitude, it makes me feel good to see.
My maternity leave has come to an end so quickly, so I am working hard and visualizing positive progress with the business. I am so excited for all the things to come this year, and trying hard to honour and release my feelings of impatience…
I have been feeling suddenly inspired to nest. I have been cooking lots of healthy hearty food, and it feels great! I often don’t feel inspired to cook…or even eat for that matter, but the past few days have been quite different – and best of all: the little bear is enjoying my food! Yay! He is not actually a picky eater, so I maybe shouldn’t take his judgment as a true indication of my talents in the kitchen – but it works for me.
Back to the writing and studying….
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